It’s a Thursday morning, I’m lying in bed coz I can’t be bothered to get up yet. Thursday is my Sunday (I work Friday to Tuesday now) so I’m going to spend as much of it being lazy as I can; in a bid to breathe, and prepare for the official start to my Summer Term tomorrow.
In my New Years post, I said I wanted to get more efficient with my blogging because I’d slipped. And here I am, almost 4 months later, having not written a single one.
In all fairness, I had no idea at the time how little free time I would have, and therefore, no time TO blog.
Work got crazy, (yes I had a show and an exam session to contend with which were big stresses), but the amount of work I was doing was a struggle. I had no time to myself, no time to see family, and I started to get ill. That’s when enough is enough, however much you don’t want to let people down. And I guess that’s what this post is about.
I’ve never been the kind of person to say yes to everything just to please people – I was known at uni for being the boring one who never went out. And I can live with that, I was there to train, and knowing going out would have an impact on that, I didn’t. Simple. I don’t regret it.
I like to believe that I’ve always been a strong person when making my own decisions (apart from when asked what I want for tea or what I want to watch on telly)! But before recently, I’ve never had to apply that mentality to work. And it’s really hard.
I want to work and learn as much as I can and look to those with greater experience for inspiration. But I couldn’t spend my entire life working and sleeping. That’s why I moved away from London.
I made a change, however guilty I felt for doing it, but I’m in such a better place now, mentally and physically. I’m glad that I found more strength.
And on top of that, I got engaged!
To THE most incredible human being I might add. Now I get to wedding plan (which is SO FUN, anyone who knows me knows how ridiculously organised I am – if teaching goes out the window, I know where to head for a new job). Which whilst it’s not entirely easy going (it’s SO time consuming and I had no idea how much there was to do till I wrote out my checklist), it gives me a release from work and has turned into my off switch. Not to mention it’s so bloody exciting! Can someone please tell me why I’m adulting when I still feel 18? 😂
Life is funny.
It can be crap. It can be wonderful. It can be challenging. It can suck.
It can be tough, heart breaking, soul wrenching, cruel.
It can also be rewarding, inspiring, hysterical, full of love.
In the past couple of months especially, I’ve taken more of a back seat, a look at the bigger picture. Life can be so many things, but we’ve SO got to make the most of it, and do what makes us happy.
And that, is where I leave you. Grab life by the horns, and do what makes you happy.